For me, writing is an entirely different activity than editing. I often know in the moment that what I’m writing is absolute crap. But it is only once I have some ideas down on paper that I can then rearrange overly wordy content into a more precise document to convey whatever points I want to make. Sometimes I don’t even know what point I’m trying to make until I begin organizing my thoughts on paper.
I wonder if the lives we lead could benefit from similar activity. We don’t know what we like to do until we try it, but it is easy to think you are supposed to know before you try.
Maybe we should just try and try and try, and then take regular intervals to step back and reflect. What is working for you? What do you, outside of your societal norm, want for your life? How can you move things around in your days and weeks, as we would move sentences around in a paragraph, to make your days flow more efficiently and to fit in more of what you like to do and what is important to you?
As with any piece of writing it will never be perfect but it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t keep trying.